So what happened to me in 2017? What went on in my life because I did a vanish.
Last week I was invited to attend Spectrum brushes press event for their new collection of marble brushes.
This cruelty free brush brand is Barry born and bred and know their stuff when it comes to brushes that set themselves apart from the rest.
To launch the new whopping 35 piece set, named the Holy Grail set, we were treated to an evening of pampering from Nails Inc, buffet from local veggie and vegan cafe Milgis, and cocktails and bubbles from Candy Kittens and Dirty Martini.
I just finished watching 13 Reasons Why on Netflix and it did bring back a lot of repressed and lingering thoughts about me growing up, to the point I was sat bawling and laughing at myself on my sofa during episode 13 leaving my two friends baffled and in absolute stitches watching my mascara and eyeliner being smeared around my face. There is only one thing I will cry at, and that’s pixar or general 3d animated films, so this was a shock to my system because I could see myself in Hannah’s shoes. It really hit home on how people don’t take things seriously, dismiss claims, shrug off people’s cries for help and above all a joke or someone teasing can really effect someone to the point where they blame themselves. I am really open about my mental health and people are always taken aback when I am forward with it. What shocks me is that people are shocked when I talk about it, and thankfully this programme has made it show how hard it is to accept or deal with even mentioning the word “depression”.
After watching something, I always like to read peoples thoughts and opinions on things and look at any easter eggs I may have missed during the time my mascara blocked my retinas from being able to process what I was watching. I came across this article written on newsstateman.com and I would just like to start this probably long winded post by saying shame on you. I presume you have never experienced what it is like to be in a situation where you feel so low you can’t even murmur the word help. I presume you have never seen blood bleed from your own flesh, because of someone elses insecurities. I presume you’ve never been in a fight or flight situation where you’ve blanked out and woke up with your own blood on the sheets to stop someone elses actions. I also presume you have never seen your friends being taken to hospital for using a razor on themselves so much all because their minds have overthought a situation. It has nothing to do with what social group I was around on why we would all feel low, or take things out on ourselves, or the fact that we may have all been a little more sensitive than others. The “It doesn’t happen” attitude is why people do not seek help. People are just disgusting. Bullying happens. Suicide happens. It is real.
With Spring literally just arriving, I’m eager to see what the trends will be for this season. I’m praying and hoping we ditch the matte lip, foundation and heavy brows and move on from the perfected Kylie Jenner-esque look.
Here are my predictions for the start to a fresher makeup look for Spring 2017.
It’s me again! Just a little update on my life. I feel as though I write one of these every other month, but honesty my life is so unpredictable I just can’t get surprised by the amount of poop it throws at me anymore. But, saying that, for the amount it throws at me two or three good things happen in return.
I felt like my face was going to jump off and run away.
Turns out a tooth which snapped in half last year in Amsterdam while eating a hot dog decided it had had enough and infected the whole of my left side of my face and the left side of my teeth. I have a major fear of needles so I haven’t been to the dentist for 8 or so years, but honestly the pain I was in is still indescribable, I just manned up and bit the bullet. I had to be put on a course of antibiotics and wait a few days to see what could be done but in all honestly I just wanted my tooth pulled. The infection got worse so by day 3 it had to be pulled, I manned up, had an injection, which was called the wand and to be fair, it didn’t even hurt because it didn’t look like a needle and the end is coated with numbing stuff, and after 20 minutes of sobbing, crushing the dentists assistants hand, swearing, 5 more uses of the wand and the use of Ikea looking tools my tooth was out. It has taught me a valuable lesson to man up and go get things done and maybe, just maybe, your whole face won’t get infected making you resemble a frog.
So I’d like to award myself with this award because I was a big girl.
I left my job.
I’m not going to get fully into the whole politics of it, however I will say if you’re working and don’t like your job, change it. There is nothing worse than not wanting to get up in the morning to go work somewhere you dislike. It consumes you to the point where if you say “Never guess what happened today”, your partner replies with three options and it is 99.9% always one of those things every time. There are plenty of options out there and there is a job for everyone. For me, I like to do my job, say bye, and go home for a kip. In my spare time I like to blog, nap, draw, and do things which will help me progress my career. It irritates me when you’re promised the world put all the effort you can into something and it dawns on you it was promised to 50 other members of staff and they sell you an empty promise. They’ve already picked that one person from the word go. Then you see they are giving everyone else that empty hope, to the point you realise you’re just a number and the hard work you’ve done to get noticed just doesn’t really matter because there is always someone who tramples on peoples heads to get where they want to be and get praised for everyone’s hard work. So you sit back and watch the Titanic sink to the point you see a life raft and think yeah, I’m off mate. So essentially that’s a polite way to say what happened. So I made a change on the biggest negative thing in my life.
Now for the good things…
I got a job.
I am back with Pixi Beauty! I worked with them around 7 years ago in Boots and honestly the difference I have seen in myself knowing I never have to step back into my old job is insane. I was planning on doing a post on their new launches but I suppose that it would seem very bias if I did it at this point. So here is a picture from one of the looks I did using them. If anyone would still like me to post it I can, it’s all written out and just needs to be posted. I will be based in the South West area, so plodding along the Bristol, Cardiff, Swansea and Southampton stores. Pop along and see me if you’d like to try some stuff out!
I am off to Amsterdam.
In exactly 9 days I am off to Amsterdam and I can’t wait. We’re planning on doing less touristy things this time and walking around a lot more. Museumplein has some really good exhibitions this time around including Dali and Banksy so I’m very excited for those. I absolutely love Amsterdam, everything there is so calming and welcoming, I’ll definitely have a dark cloud over me for a week or so after returning because I would do anything to live there. But life goes on and I have a lot to look forward to this coming year!
I’m improving my confidence to expand my blog.
At the moment, I’m rearranging my room to get the perfect ~Blogger~ set up, not to mention the fact my room needs a good clearout so I can find things in my room! I’m talking more to myself while doing makeup in a hope in a month or two I’ll be sat in front of a camera and talking to the internet. I’m planning on having two channels, one that has life things on such as Pokemon TCG, any games I’m playing and just my uninteresting life, then one which is makeup application, hints and tips. I just need to work on getting past the fact of people finding me who I know in real life and I’ll be A-okay.
Anyway, enough about me, normal schedule will resume after I return from Amsterdam and hopefully I will have a steady workflow!
I have a fight or flight mode when it comes to my mental health, and usually I choose flight. In the past I have gotten on random buses or trains and just gotten off at the last stop to have a walk around and clear my head, which can be a bit dangerous for me because I have no sense of direction. So when I need to de-stress or try to get away for a hour or two I try to stick to my area of Cardiff and have a look around charity shops. This way I don’t spend money that I usually don’t have, its kind of guilt free knowing it’s going to charity and can get my frustrations out by rummaging around boxes and coat rails of clothes. The best thing to do is go with an open mind and you’ll find some things you were totally not expecting.
My favourite place to go is Albany Road. I’ve heard that Canton is also great for charity shops as my friends have managed to pick up genuine bags and purses for under £5 because the shops think they’re fake, but I’ve yet to go there.
Click ahead to see what I’ve recently grabbed while having a travel around.
I like to spend all my disposable income on make up and going out to places and doing things. So when it comes to my home food I do live life on a budget.
When it comes to selecting food I tend to go for own store brand (with some exceptions like butter, coffee, crisps) so it does need some TLC to taste nice. In no means I’m a chef so 90% of the time it does go wrong, because I like my food to be over cooked when it comes to home cooking so I won’t die from food poisoning, but I have faith in myself and sometimes good things like this pizza go right.
Read on to see how I made a plain pizza look fancy.